Thursday, August 31, 2006

sept.7. hahaha.

My guitar is the only thing that I can't let go of.
Once I play it, I can't stop playing it.
But of course I stop once in a while.
It's like you don't want put it back in the case because you're having fun with it. haha.

Basta. It's what I'm doing right now..
Hahaha..

I have so many problems.
99 problems and a (*****) ain't one. hahaha.

forget that last line. haha.

ilan na ba... 3 people.. and counting.. hmm.. haha.

okay, LABO.

PTC bukas. good luck satin. >.<
O__o hahaha.

say something. anything!

I feel like throwing up.
No.
I felt like throwing up.
haha.

Since this morning until now. And my head hurts.
And my busmate said that my eyes were red.
It's because I didn't get to sleep well. Haha.

Annoying things that happened today:
1) Everyone kept on saying, "shh" when we were about to make noise. Yung para hindi mapagalitan ng teacher. And I was so annoyed by it. It's like they're cooking something in my head. haha. STOP IT. One more, I'm gonna burst. haha.

2) THAT person doesn't reply to my texts. Answer one thing: GALIT KA BA? I've sent you my messages already and not a single reply from you.

3) Something happened. I don't even know if I should care about it. Hahaha.

4) Everything's so annoying that I want to pull that trigger. And everything will be alright. Hahahaha.

5) I find this annoying: Making crappy poems. Believe it or not, I made 3 today. Hahahaha. Holy crap. I'm doing this again for no good reason. Hahaha.

I am so drained. I even have to do my homework. I want to rest.
Why? Because I came home at 7:30 from training. That's why. Haha.

I NEED YOU TO REPLY.

sept. 7 na. haha.

Love is attraction, but attraction is never love.
Love is true to anyone. Anyone can love truthfully, but not everyone can love faithfully.. why!?

wahahahaha.

yihee..

202 na yung posts ko.. room number din namin.. hahaha. (so what??) haha.

anyway, this sucks!
namamaga daliri ko!

it hurts! SOBRA! hahaha..
at least i can still type. hahaha.

:(

the power of typing with one hand. hahaha..

hmm.... :)

chicken........bit.. haha.

64-29

i think. hahaha.
basta panalo kami. hahaha.

we played against St. Stephen's High School..

i didn't get to play much because of my finger..
when i took off my support to have it taped, i saw that it was red. haha.
namamaga... :(

hahaha...
i'm sleepy..

This is my 200th post.

Hahaha... It's kinda surprising for me because I just started this blog.... umm.. March palang... ayun.. haha..

anyway, we had to wear filipiniana costumes today......
then we had regular classes.. pfftt... haha.

Then we had our PA. tsk. I hate this subject. ahahahaha..
And this is the part where I go crazy. well, not really..
I wasn't doing anything when...
Ms. Escamillas said, "Calingacion and Lopez!"
Then everyone looked at us.

And I didn't find anything wrong. I wasn't even doing anything.
In my mind I was saying, "WTF?! I didn't do anything! What the heck is wrong with doing nothing?"

hahaha.
okay... I'm just not used to being called by the teacher. ahaha..
And it's just the second time the teacher ever called my name to scold me this school year. hahaha.
And it's by the same teacher. haha.
Then I found out that I had a classmate who was my neighbor. haha.
I never knew because I really don't talk to my neighbors. We are the only family that ever lived here for a long time and we don't even talk to our neighbors. hahahaha.

And I thought we weren't anti-social. hahaha.

anyway...... tomorrow's the game against St. Stephen's High School..... Hope we win..

I don't even know how i'll be going home. hahahaha.

---
Weirdly enough, I miss airplane food. Haha. I mean, I have ridden the airplane more than 5 times already during the US trip. And I got attached to Cathay Pacific's food. I hated it before. But I got used to it. haha. I even remember I used to get those small packets of UHT milk then putting it in my cup. Then I'd watch the movies on my screen then I'd fall asleep. Then next thing I knew, they were serving food again. It's really cool. Haha.

I remember, on our trip back home, we were going through Hong Kong first.. It was 3 or 4 am so there weren't much people in the airport.. We (Blu, Red and I) saw this playpen.. The huge flat screen TV was on, nobody was there and we had Cheetos by our side. Haha. It was my time to release the kid in me. hahahahah! I played with the toys.. then watched tv... then ate Cheetos.. It was really fun! I swear. I wish it happened again. Hahaha. memories talaga! haha. Next trip would be Australia i guess. hahaha.

this is 199.

I have to print my PA homework.

I have to stop talking to HER.

I have to do my Math homework.

I have to stop watching TV.

I have to drink coffee.

I have to go offline.

I have to get off this chair.

I have to wake up my mind.

I have to end this.

(I can do those. But my brain's dead. Haha.)

yeah right. you were drunk. haha.

Forget about the subject. haha.

let's get straight to the point. haha.

we went to ATC yesterday. We were just supposed to go to Healthway just because of my ring finger. It was painful since summer. And I was too stubborn to go to the doctor. haha.

I had my hand x-rayed. haha. no fractures naman. just some bone that went out of place and went over the other bone. HAHA. im kidding. hahaha.

The doctor said I just had to immobilize it. (uhh.. yea.. immobilize.. ? haha.) So that means I have to wear this finger support and I have to wear something-plast (i forgot the name. haha). May pauso nanaman ako sa school. haha.

After that, we decided to watch Click. i don't know why. haha. It was nice. Really nice. :)

So the next day, which is today, I wore my finger support and a few minutes after, my finger became black-ish. haha. Blood wasn't going to my ring finger. hahahaahah. It was so cool. haha. It was black and it was the only cold thing on my hand. haha. It's really cool. hahaha.

okay, i'll edit this later. I'm getting lazy. haha.

I remember...

When we were at the US, we went to this mall..
It was Christmas season '05, so they had songs about Christmas on the speakers.
haha.

Then we heard this song. it went..
"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart, but the very next day you gave it away. This year, to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special.."

haha.
Then we went to the next mall using our uber big van. haha.
And they played the exact same damn song.
Oh god. It was really bugging us. hahahaha.

wala lang. haha.

Don't get mad at me for this.

See me curse. wahaha.
everybody does this thing every once in a while. so don't tell me that you've never done this.
haha.
(okay, let's change moods. haha)

Pucha.
Bumalik ka na nga sa pinanggalingan mo!
SA IMPYERNO!

tangina mo!

get back to your hell hole
you fucking bastard shithead bitch!

ugh.

And stay away from me you insensitive bastard!
Just fuck off and leave me!

just leave me alone!
Fuck off!

nyahaha. 81% happy. really? haha.

i stole this from _ _ _'s dA.
hahaha.

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[ ] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 3
[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
T 0 T A L: 7
[ ] You have over 50 friends on myspace
[x] You have pictures on myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace (i don't even use it. haha)
[x] You get allowance
[ ] You collect something normal.
[x] You look foward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school. (who doesn't? haha)
T 0 T A L: 6
[ ] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parent(s).
[ ] You are happy with your appearance
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life
[x] You have friends
T 0 T A L: 2
[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life
[x] You know more than one language
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies(not yet.. ? haha.)
[x] You are a generally nice person. (i guess so... haha)
T O T A L: 9
Now count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "MY LIFE IS % HAPPY"

hate, knife, pen

i just can't forget things.

i can't seem to get over it.

and it is going to be hard talking to you.

just leave..

one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, hate.

on, off, on, off..

make up your damn mind, lia.

i don't know what to do anymore.
i want to fix this. but everytime i do, it gets broken again.

I hope you read this.

one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, hate, knife, pen.
yes......
haha..

waha.

I really should be doing my homework right now.

But my lazy ass won't get off the chair.
And I have a new inspiration to draw.
and that inspiration is "you"

i know you people don't know I draw.
But i do. I just don't draw like my sis.
She draws so friggin' detailed. I draw like some crap you just picked up from the trash can.
But if you do see me draw, pretend you never saw me.

And if you do see my drawings, swear to God you'll never see it again. haha.
My sis draws anime, I draw.... err.. stick figures with clothes.

Stick figures shouldn't be naked. They should be treated like the other drawings.
They need clothes.

Oh, why am I saying this here?
it's my deepest secret!
hahaha...

And I have to do my homework.

08/15/06

As of 9:00pm, Aug. 15, 2006...

It is finally over.

.....

okay, so i'm missing so much stuff right now.
basta. haha.

ang malas ko kaya ngaun..
may sprain yung arm ko
tas i bumped my head pa on the table.
oo, may bukol. hahaha.

tapos tama ba naman na pindutin yung bukol.
amp. ang sakit. hahaha.

basta. ang malas ko ngayon.
tsk tsk tsk.

tapos tinatamad ako gumawa ng retreat letters. hahaha. eh sa thursday na sila. hahaha.

cge.. yun na muna. ang sakit ng ulo ko. haha.

190................

i knew it.

inhale.. exhale..
i can feel my eyes burn.
and i've once again called myself stupid.

i knew this would happen.
And i knew it from the text message you sent me.
After i read it, i missed a beat and i didn't know what to do. i fell down on my knees.

and it all ends now.
i wish all these didn't happen.
i wish you were gone in this world.

just shut up and leave, jerk.

to you:
well, sorry ain't good enough. it's better enough to leave me alone than talking to me.
just leave.

defense!! DDDR!

woohoo.. panalo tayo. haha.

66-42?

ewan. nakalimutan ko na. hahaha.
woohoo.. 1st victory natin 'to. haha.

syempre... LSCA eh. haha.

pero astig yung #16.. grabe kung mag-crossover eh. titingin kung saan-saan habang nag-ccrossover. haha.

anyway, after nung game, nakita ko si Alex.. yung ex nya. wahahahaha.. (futsaaa.) tas inasar pa ako ni jethro ng, "you're so tall!" tapos nagka sugat ako sa leg. haha.
manahimik ka nga. hahaha. joke lang.

whatever. forget it. hahaha.

grabe. ang higpit ng mga referee. isang hawak lang, foul kaagad.. tsk. haha. ayus lang yan. haha.

tapos yung #14 sa st. scho, kamukha ni pauline. haha. wala lang.

ayun....

you look like a boy, you dress like a boy, you talk like a boy, and you act like a boy. oh wait, you are a boy. hahahaha.

hwaaaww...

ngayon ko lang nalaman. hahaha.

ang bilis ko pala magselos pag ganito.
IKAW KASI EH!

pakwento kwento ka pa sakin. nasasaktan lang naman ako.
tsk tsk tsk.

hahaha..

haaay..

kilala na ako ng kamukha nya! waaahhh..

malas yan. hahahahaha.

good luck nalang sakin. hahahaha.

Ang galing ni kat.

sabi niya.
pag mahal ka ng tao di nya kayang magalit sayo.

grabe. ang galing mo kat. totoo nga un. hahahahaha.

haaay..
there are a lot of if's, why's and how's in my mind right now.

damn thing won't get off my mind.
tsk.

im so stupid.

hahahaha.

ngayon lang ako nakapagonline uli. haha.

grabe. i woke up this morning with red eyes.
we had a fight kasi last night. hahaha.

KAT! WTF! WEIRDO KA! hahaha..

hwaw.. sbca vs. lsca on saturday! hahaha..

oh god. tests! hahahaha.. today is the last day! haha.

hahaha. tinatamad na ako haha. babay!

wahaha.

08/07/06

yan yung date na nagyari ang hindi dapat mangyari. haha. basta.

yan din yung date na nalaman ko na allergic ako sa chalk dust. hahahaha.

yan din yung date na nakuha ko yung bag ko na england. hahaha.

basta! ang daming nangyari. sobra. ahahahaha.

yes, no, maybe, never.

hahaha. wala lang. haha.

tsk tsk.
sabi mo sakin oo eh! I'm making a fool out of myself.

haay...
tama nga yung cartoon na yun. haha.
yung, "it's called crush because in the end, you'll get crushed"

i posted it before. haha. totoo kasi sya.. hahahaha.
waaaa........aaaa..aa.a.a....a....a..a.a..a.a.....a.a.a....a.a..a.a....a

help me...................
waaaaahahahahahah.. nababaliw na ko.... help.... hahahaha....

i've got my gun to my head. hahaha.

Tanga kasi ako! tanga tanga tangaa.... hahahaha.

nung opening ng wncaa

nakarating ako sa skul ng mga.. 8:30. haha.
umalis kami mga 9:30..

we had to wait.. mga 10 years bago magsimula ang opening! patay gutom na ang mga tao at hindi pa nagsisimula. hahahaha. di ko sinuot yung jersey ko kasi wala. haha. so sinuot ko nalang yung jacket ni ate heidi.. aun..

grabe. naantok ako nung opening. haha. nakakapagod.. maghintay. haha.

tapos pagdating sa bahay, tulog kaagad. tapos nagising ako mga 7pm na. haha.

ayoko na magkwento. tinatamad na ako.. naantok nanaman ako.
hwaw, tulog ako nang tulog ahhhh.. hahaha..
mamaya nalang. pag may oras pa. haha.

sana pala hindi ko tinanong kng cno crush mo. haha. masasaktan lang pala ako. hahaha. tanga ko. hahahaha.

nako naman.

tsk tsk tsk..

okay, kwento ako...

Nung lunch time, nag assembly kami.. tapos nawalan kami ng electricity.. haha.
so classes were stopped... we had to wait.. until our generator worked. astig kaya nung assembly. ang ingay ingay tapos yung buong HS nandun. haha. We had 15 minutes left for our Math. haha.

nung recess, akala ko nawala Fil book ko. tsk. yun pala naka-ipit dun sa brown envelope. haha. tanga!! haha. muntikan na ko mapunta sa prefect. haha.

Okay, so I got home... Tapos sabi sakin na kakain sa labas.. eh pagod pa ako nun.. pero sunod naman ako. haha.

After eating, Mom decided to go to church..

Sb nya, "let's go to church, is it okay?"
sb ko, "okay"
sbay isip sa sarili.. "wtf? friday ngaun dba? bkt magsisimba? di ko nga alam na may simba pag friday eh. haha. nde.. okay lang yan, para kay God at sa team nmn yan eh."

naks. hahaha.. It's totally different from the Sunday people.

Friday people are serious in a cool way. haha.
Sunday people are noisy.
Friday people never leave the church until the last song.
Sunday people leave before the last song.
Friday people aren't crowded.
Sunday people are crowded.
Friday people are so kind.
Sunday people are "tipong astig"
Friday is Friday.
Sunday is Sunday.

haha.
Eh nung pauwi kami.. bigla ako na badtrip. amp.
I never listened to a single word.
I was busy grinding my teeth and clenching my fist. lumalabas na ugat ko sa inis. haha.

hmm.. maybe it was good for you to bite your tongue. bwahahah.

Bwahahaha..

Okay, my day went good.. until I saw her. haha.

I mean, I was making sure she wasn't there. I even thought she was absent. haha. But there she was, walking, talking, laughing... and my brain goes boom. haha.

It's been a pretty busy day. wearing the illustration board during classes tapos tatayo at uupo ka pa. eh ang hirap umupo pag suot suot yung illustration board. haha.

i'm so thankful that it's the last day of folk dancing. next next week, swimming na. but i don't want to swim. i have to buy pa a proper swimsuit. haha. gastos masyado. tsk tsk.

nakakatawa yung assembly nung umaga. haha
sir aviles showed us the way of saying good morning. yung sign language. hahaha.
tawa kami nang tawa. to the point na umiyak na kami. hahaha.

the sign looks so stupid kasi. yung sa huli parang nag FU ka.. hahahaha...
okay, yun na muna. homework muna. hahaha

NAKO.

Ikaw lang talaga yung nagpapasabog ng utak ko tuwing nasa bahay ako.

Sana lang malaman mo kung ano yung mga pinagdadaanan ko sa school.
SANA LANG.

Buti nga na hindi ako nagdadabog eh. Ako na nga nagbabayad ng lahat tapos bigla kang maiinis.

Let me be alone for now. Okay?!

ANYWAY, puro galit at inis na yung nandito sa blog ko. haha.
let's go to the bright side...

Natapos ko na rin sa wakas ang Shopaholic and Sister. haha. ang ganda. haha.
I know I should be reading Jonathan Livingston Seagull but it's so boring! I swear! haha.

Okay, let's go back to the darker side.. haha.
--> Excuses ka nanaman! Wala ka nang ibang ginawa kundi gumawa ng excuse. tsk tsk. I hate you. If your excuse was for real, why didn't you tell me yourself? You had to make your friend say it for you pa. tsk.

pfft.

kung ayaw mo magreply, edi wag!

tsk.

nakakainis ka.

oh god..........................

Who would want to give me a knife as a present?

I'd gladly accept..

haha. bakit nga ba ako dito sa mundong ito?
wala naman nangyari sakin kundi lahat ng masama..
may naninira pa. amp.
sana wala na ako dito. sana biglang sumabog utak ko. sana lang.

ugh. i need you!!!!