Thursday, April 27, 2006

breaking the habit

I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

-LP-

umm..

we're going to batangas tomorrow!!
and thank God that we won't have any practice next monday.
but on Wednesday, after practice, we'll have this initiation thing and i don't know what the heck they're going to do to us. it's creeping me out.

the good thing about our practice today was that we only had games lang. haha

i was the second one to arrive the sports complex. and it was early. haha
when we were all complete, we started na. we ran up and down the bleachers 10 rounds. grabe.
after that, we had the games na.
walang weights.
and everytime I stand up my legs hurt. hahaha.

tignan nyo 'to

kung dsl kayo,

http://www.homestarrunner.com/tgs9.html
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basta, tignan nyo. nakakatawa! hahaha..

what goes on in my mind.

mag wrong grammar nga tayo.

im so pessimisticing.
im so being tamad because of all the making init. hahahahaha!
i need to updated my ipod because i having very boring song. hahaha.
i am so being excited because of the go batangas going. hahahahah
i am so jealousing of my dogs. they spoiling. hahahaah!

you hab to buy the fallowing albums... may luma, may bago.
Daft Punk - Musique Vol.1 1993-2005 (pakinggan nyo yung "something about us")
Sandwich - Five on the Floor
Linkin Park - Meteora
Fort Minor - The Rising Tied
Jack Johnson - In Between Dreams
Bamboo - Light, Peace, Love

ang galing sobra... did you know that the whole set of Memoirs of a Geisha was in California? They actually built everything from scratch! hahaha!

"i've let myself become you"

what goes on in my mind

grrr...

i made so many mistakes! hahaha

i used the lala girls account to make a testimonial for vickY! hahahaha..

stupid me.

egads...

in my opinion, i ate much today.. hahahaha..
pero i promise talaga na i won't eat too much sa batangas.
nakakasuka kasi pag nakatingin ka sa isang box puno ng junk food.. blehhhhh...
hahahahaha

i might be on "blogging leave"
bwahahaha..
im kinda busy kasi eh.
ngayon nga lang ako nakapag online.

i wish i could remember what i had to post. haha

i never kept track of dates every summer time. hahahaha..

The day before yesterday
we had a shopping spree! hahaha.. really.. i bought so much stuff. it feels good shopping. but one very important thing is that you have to have money and lots of 'em. hahahahah.

shades
music albums (daft punk, sandwich!, madonna? hahaha)
shirts
jeans
misc... hahahahah..

Yesterday
We went on car hunting again. this time, it's around makati, Pasig, qc or edsa..
Then that night, my cousins came over.

Today
We had our training today. I'm sleepy. hahahahaha.

---

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

how i wish this was before.

the best thing he ever said to me was

"ako bahala sa 'yo"

---

basta. i'd love to tell the whole story but i can't.

---

by the way, i made a south park photo of lala girls. done out of boredom.
it isn't complete actually. if i completed it, it would take up too much space to put on friendster. hahahaha.

---

i saw sparks in your eyes the first time i saw you.
i never knew that it would be this way.
when i was in my time of darkness,
you lit up my life.

but i knew when time came,
we grew apart.
you left me
and my broken heart.

---

bwahahahaha! ang senti nun!!
hahahhahaha!!
this was the only time i did that. the last time i did it was last year i think! wow.

anyway, i finally got over it.
but i still miss those times.
we had it going.

but as time flew by,
it went going, going, gone.

---

okay, i don't want to think about it anymore.
i've turned over a new leaf! hahahaha..

---

rumble roses... so weird.... o__O

---

madami na akong "---"
i'll stop doing the "---"
hahahha.

babay.

sobrang adik.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whattimeofdayareyouquiz/">What Time Of Day Are You?

:)

check what's in my LJ.
http://heavy-bakal.livejournal.com

it's so much easier posting there. but in a free account, there's only limited features.
na-adik ako dun sa quiz. sorry.

:) hehehehe

adik.

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

You Are 40% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.
You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.That doesn't mean you don't rock out...You just rock out with meaning.For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

weeeeee..

i've been pretty much a limping assistant the whole day. bwahahaha. (okay, im the only one laughing)

i don't want to talk about that. i'm too lazy to type about that right now. (then why do i have a blog?)

there are so many things on my mind right now. But the only thing I'm sure of right now is that I'm excited for the trip to batangas! Still, I'm confused with the Lala outing. Pauline says it's going to be held at Tagaytay and it's this april. But how can it be held this april when we are going to batangas?

bah.

i don't know. i'm confused. my mind is temporarily broken.

*one moment please*
dooooo doooo
da da da
doooo dooo
da da da

okay. hahaha.

i don't know anymore.
but there's one thing more before that trip to batangas.
i have to sacrifice first.
Blood, sweat and tears.

Lord, help me go through this. Stay with me. Guide our team.
(aba, napaka-religous ha.)
bwahaha.

I need to stay alive or else I'll be kicked out off the team.
Please pray for me!

wheeew...

i can't believe that i have gone through this day.
i would've died because of being too tired.

here's what i did today..
5:00 am - i woke up. first day of training bball na 'to.
6:00 am - i finally arrive in school. punta ako sports complex.
6-10 am - training na. grabe sobrang nakakapagod. mamamatay ka na sa sobrang pagod. PROMISE. parang nga ang bagal nga oras nun eh. it was like hell there.
10-12 pm - nag-wweights yung juniors at seniors. kami nila jethro, leah, angel at ako, nag-shooting. 50 baskets daw. haha. gutom. tapos nagttraining yung air 21 sa kabila.

after the training, we went home na and ate lunch.
we went to market market afterwards.
kahit masakit yung katawan ko sumama parin ako. pasaway...

right now, my left and right calf and thighs hurt. hahaha.
tapos nung nagttraining kami, nahulog ako and i landed right on my pelvis. tapos na sprain pa yung right ring finger ko. grabe.

i should be dead by now. haay.

---
anyway, i didn't get to blog during holy week that much.
why? because....

i cant remember what date but we went night swimming for the first time! haha. hanggang 1am. nagising na ko mga i dunno.. basta. hindi ako nakapag-blog

monday, tuesday and wednesday - painting the house
friday - we had the usual trip to manila. it's the thing we do every holy week.
saturday - party to the max. haha
sunday - puyat? oo. pero nakakapag simba parin syempre. mainit nga lang.. i had no clue that the next day was monday that morning. haha.
monday - look above.

tomorrow dad's leaving for bora. how lucky.
hahaha.

hanggang dito na muna. mas lalong sumakit katawan ko. babay. haha.

gosh..

Bamboo has so many events for Smart..
one in Bora,
Matabungkay,
Puerto Galera,
Aliw Theater,
and Davao..

May gagawin pa si dad na Bamboo sa PICC..
tsk tsk tsk...

sobrang dami..
they must have been blessed. hahaha..
http://www.bamboo.com.ph
currently under construsction but gigs are still posted there.

:)

i hate typos....

ayan.

this is when it gets irritating.

... said yes.

when it was nearly the end,

... starts saying that ... is waiting for ... before approving.

heck.

will you take a boy than taking your friends?

---

what's wrong with people nowadays?
I admit that I am also oe of them.

---

to the person who is reading this,
I am not talking about you.
I promise.
The person I'm talking about doesn't even read this.

holy week?

wla nmn kmi ggwin ngaung holy week.
We're just going to paint the house.
from the colors of La Salle to a..
Meditteranean thingy...
hahaha..

wala lang.. gusto ko lang i-share. hhaha..

babay.

so unfair (ang colorful naman ng post)

this is the WORST summer of my life.

*Everyone's having fun
*Dad's going to Boracay for that sh*tty MTV and we won't come
*Calatagan is the only place in mind
*Parents are working to the max which means we don't get to go anywhere (literally)
*I'm rotting like HELL in this house
*I have no friends
*People I know die and fight
*Cousin is mierda (spanish for sh*t)
*It's friggin' hot
*I'm so tired of the friggin' ps2 backround music my sis is playing
*I'm reading a book of foreign swearwords
*I'd rather... nevermind.. you don't want to know
*Everythings breaking apart (I can remember the song of She Wants Revenge. "I wanna f*cking tear you apart")
*My Sis doesn't even know that this is a total bummer beacause all she has is her fone, the internet and the PS2. Imagine hearing stupid background songs repeating over and over and over and over and over and over and over
*Buti pa yung iba dyan, nag-bbeach or whatever
*I'm going to drop because it's hot to the song of drop it like it's hot
*Summer's so bad that I'm crying (weird noh?)
*I'm thinking that calatagan will be the only trip
*I know that I have to be patient this summer
*I'm sure I'm going to be a patient in the hospital because of summer
*Wala na akong magawa kundi mag-internet at mag-basketball (masaya ba 'to?)
*I don't get to watch TV that much anymore (masaya ba ang summer ko?)
*Pero syempre hindi ko nakakalimutan na mag simba at mag dasal

Do you know what I'm going to do this holy week?
I swear. It's totally fun. This part is the part I like.
I'll die of boredom and heat.

sasama nalang ako dun sa Mt. Everest. Kung naabot namin yung tuktok, I'll jump off the mountain. Galing noh? Great idea.

Ay nako. basta.

Iiyak nalang ako

I miss the old times.
Why?
Because this is sh*t.

Let's hear some positive stuff!
*It's a good thing I read blogs.

Yun lang ang pinaka positive na nasa isip ko.

Ay, eto pa.
*I thank GOD for making me change my mind.

2 lang ang positive.

Oh! I know what to do. Be happy about doing nothing. I'll refuse to go out. I'll refuse to go to the beach. Summer has made me miserable. I'll thank summer by being happy about doing nothing. (As if I can do that. I've been crying. Do you expect me to do nothing when my family's going to the beach? Hah! Not a chance!)

But I'll still show my mom that I'm happy doing nothing.
It's reverse psychology.
Be happy about doing nothing in the house and maybe you will be granted a trip to the sunny beach. It can also be a sign that I'm going loco because of doing nothing. Right?

And here's another thing.
Why did I buy a swimsuit when I won't be going to the beach?

Buti pa aso ko. Walang ginawa kundi matulog. Hindi naman tumataba. Galing. Ayan o. Sarap ng tulog nila. Naka-a/c pa.

*Ego Change*swish swish swish shwshwshwshw*sound effects*
The worst thing about loving you is watching you love someone else.
Wow. This is a long post.

haha..

i've been listening to more R n B lately.. hahaha..

Galing ni Kanye West..
hahaha..

I prefer songs like Kanye's..
Hindi masyadong bastos.. hahaha..

wow..

The Yeah Yeah Yeah's are cool
And so is Matisyahu.

So many artists..
tsk tsk tsk..

permission to steal mind space.

weirded-out (i was supposed to post this yesterday)

i'm so "weirded-out" by the april issue of candy mag..
tsk tsk tsk..
basta..

anyway, i did pretty much of car hunting at WTC.. haha
dami ko nga nakuhang pictures sa fone ko eh. hahaha..

help me decide..
picanto
or
aveo?

hahaha..

i've been pretty much amazed by the way i "evolved" in magazines.

first, i had Witch by my side
next, i did a bit of k-zone.. (it had that not-for-me feeling eventually)
now, i usually buy candy or meg.
RARELY, i buy seventeen.
hahahahaha..

THIS PART IS WHERE I HAVE TO FESS UP.

my cousin is being grounded for..well.. i don't know..
it's me and migs' cruelness to lorenzo.
BUT i'm not THAT cruel noh..
i throw pillows at lorenzo because he's such an ....
and... etc..
oh yeah.. we even chop his fingers off. joke lang!

There has to be a deal in this type of being grounded.

We will be nice to lorenzo IF he's nice to us.
FYI...
We are not the only cruel one's in the family.
He even does this "overdrive" thing to us.

And do you know what happens in an "overdrive"?

He does all this shouting at us for nothing and he even kicks us when we try to stop him.
Yep, you heard me.
Parang AB..

I like watching Massive..
it's cool.

VAFFANCULO
bakayarou

.............

got card today...
blah blah......

i didn't come to the getting of cards..
even my parents.

so you may be wondering how i got my card..
I STOLE IT.

obviously, that wouldn't happen.

my tita just got it.

i hate the son.
SORRY, pero totoo.
But we are at peace now.
I am a-ok with that.

so,
i got the friggin' pic of the marching thingy,
the alumni card thingy. (patas na kami ni Ate,, yehey)
diploma,
junior bedan,
bedan newsblitz,
report card........
etc..

blah blah..

don't ever mess with me.
knoei niet ooit met me.
ne salissez pas jamais avec moi.
nicht überhaupt verwirren Sie mit mir.
μην βρωμίστε πάντα με με.
non scompigli mai con me.
não mess sempre com mim.
всегда mess с мной.
no ensucie siempre con mí.

got it? good.
that goes for my friggin' cousin, too.
Still, we are at peace.
I am a-ok with that. AGAIN.
haha

I feel like dying..

yep, you heard me. dying.

I'm sorry if I have hurt you, whoever you are. I am taking what I have said back. I have been given a taste of my own medicine. I'm sorry

Gomen.
watashi ai shimasu anata.
Don't ever try to translate that.
hahaha..
i apologize for i have very bad japanese.
i seem to have jumbled the words.
but who the heck cares.
no one does actually.

i don't like using translators.
I prefer to use "rusty" japanese.

kawaii desu ne.
hahaha...

sayonara
^_^

..

summer's officially over for me.

total bummer

here's a tip:
NEVER EVER LIE ABOUT ANYTHING.
NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN.
EVERY PROBLEM TO GET BIGGER.
IF YOU EVER LIE, EVERYBODY WILL GET IN TROUBLE
AND I'M SURE YOU WON'T WANT IT.

IT ALREADY HAPPENED TO US.
YOU WON'T WANT TO KNOW.

WHY ARE PARENTS LIKE THIS?
THEY NEVER UNDERSTAND US KIDS.

I'M BEGGING YOU NOT TO ASK US WHAT HAPPENED.

WTF?!?!?!??

mag-boyfriend na ba kayo????????

it looks like it.

seriously.

and i never expected it.

really.

woahhh....

this sucks...

i think the LALA's won't meet this summer.
and we won't have that traditional thing..
boo..

and now, we, the lala girls are looking for a nice place to make the LALA's meet up in..
blah blah..

caylabne's expensive..
im thinking of mimosa. or terrazas.. hahahha

whatever...
it's hard.. hahahahaha..

don't feel stupid because someone loves you. I love you!
hehehe

remember that! :)

tinatamad ako mag-update ng blog ngayon.
especially kapag-summer! hahahahaha...
nakakatamad. haahha..
sige. bukas nalang ako mag-uupdate.. 12am na. hahaha.
babay.